It's finally Thanksgiving week!!!!!! This is my favorite holiday of all time. It's a great pre-cursor to Christmas because we get to think about all the things for which we are thankful for the entire holiday season. Plus, you can't really complain about all the good food you get to eat!
So, for the next four days, I'm going to think about a few things I'm thankful for and why...the list will vary from day-to-day, but the same thankfulness theme will be evident.
I'm so thankful for my extended family. Not the blood-related ones, but the ones that we have formed relationships with through meeting at church or friends of my parents. It is just so nice to be able to call on so many different people when you are in need or whenever you just want to have a chat. I love that God has put all these extra "parents" in my life in order to really help me appreciate the value of relationships between humans. My heart is full of all kinds of love from all kinds of people who love me like their own children. Not only did I get extra sets of parents, I get the siblings to go along with them. My earthly family consists of so many more than the 5 of our immediate family unit and that is just something irreplaceable.
Well, good thing I have four more days to write things down. It's time to leave work so I'll have to lengthen my list later.
Cheers :)
Monday, November 21, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
The Hunger Games
Ok, I've been sucked into the Hunger Games series. Tonight will probably be the night I spend reading into the wee hours of the morning, because I'm finally getting to the part where the story is picking up. I'm not usually one for books like this however, I'm hooked.
Cool God moment happening: I'm sitting at the front desk of our museum and surrounding me are 710 Bibles that have been translated into languages from all around the world. Places ranging from Australia to Ecuador to Kenya to Panama to Paraguay to Sudan and Vietnam and hundreds of places in between.
I think even though it's hard sometimes to deal with people, I have to step back and remember how completely awed I am at God's stinkin' hugeness. Life gets in the way, but it always helps me to remember that He is doing big things around me and I get to see a part of it right at my workplace. Love.
I took a break from writing because I was heading home from work and I come home to find...a letter from my sweet little girl in Kenya!!!!! OhMyGoodness. My heart just melts more and more with every word. I really do not think that I have loved someone, other than family, more than I love this little girl. My heart aches to meet her and hug her little neck.
Life is good
Cheers :)
Cool God moment happening: I'm sitting at the front desk of our museum and surrounding me are 710 Bibles that have been translated into languages from all around the world. Places ranging from Australia to Ecuador to Kenya to Panama to Paraguay to Sudan and Vietnam and hundreds of places in between.
I think even though it's hard sometimes to deal with people, I have to step back and remember how completely awed I am at God's stinkin' hugeness. Life gets in the way, but it always helps me to remember that He is doing big things around me and I get to see a part of it right at my workplace. Love.
I took a break from writing because I was heading home from work and I come home to find...a letter from my sweet little girl in Kenya!!!!! OhMyGoodness. My heart just melts more and more with every word. I really do not think that I have loved someone, other than family, more than I love this little girl. My heart aches to meet her and hug her little neck.
Life is good
Cheers :)
Monday, November 14, 2011
I can't think of a good title for this post...not yet at least. Maybe by the end of me writing, I'll have something witty figured out.
At my church, the girls of the youth group have a missions group called Acteens. They study about missions, pray about missions, give to missions and they go out and do missions in the community and country. I was in Acteens while I was in youth group and I have some of the best memories ever out of that group. They are led by such godly women and it's just a good time. Well, I'm getting to see the other side of Acteens now because I'm a leader!!!! It's soooo fun and different being on the leader side of things, but I absolutely love it. We are in the middle of our annual International Mission Study and this year it's on London...which brings me to my next paragraph...
Though never having been before, I have this deeply, passionate love for London. I have nooooo idea why. There's just something about it that makes me want to make it my home. How cool is it, though, that our IMS this year is on London?? Sometimes I feel like God might be calling me there to serve short-term, but then sometimes I feel like it's just me making an excuse to go live there. Which also makes me think, why does it have to be either of those options? Why can't I just follow my heart on something that feels right? No? Maybe. This will probably have to wait until after I graduate...whenever that will be.
Speaking of school...is it really over yet? Seriously. I'm so bored of it. Ready for it to be done so I can get a real job doing what I really want to do. At least my momma told me I could stay with them as long as I was in school. That's really really helpful.
That's all for now.
Cheers :)
P.S. Pinterest is taking over my life.
At my church, the girls of the youth group have a missions group called Acteens. They study about missions, pray about missions, give to missions and they go out and do missions in the community and country. I was in Acteens while I was in youth group and I have some of the best memories ever out of that group. They are led by such godly women and it's just a good time. Well, I'm getting to see the other side of Acteens now because I'm a leader!!!! It's soooo fun and different being on the leader side of things, but I absolutely love it. We are in the middle of our annual International Mission Study and this year it's on London...which brings me to my next paragraph...
Though never having been before, I have this deeply, passionate love for London. I have nooooo idea why. There's just something about it that makes me want to make it my home. How cool is it, though, that our IMS this year is on London?? Sometimes I feel like God might be calling me there to serve short-term, but then sometimes I feel like it's just me making an excuse to go live there. Which also makes me think, why does it have to be either of those options? Why can't I just follow my heart on something that feels right? No? Maybe. This will probably have to wait until after I graduate...whenever that will be.
Speaking of school...is it really over yet? Seriously. I'm so bored of it. Ready for it to be done so I can get a real job doing what I really want to do. At least my momma told me I could stay with them as long as I was in school. That's really really helpful.
That's all for now.
Cheers :)
P.S. Pinterest is taking over my life.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Evernote
StumbleUpon stumbled me a new list of writing exercises that I'm going to start using in my Mac app called Evernote which I'm pretty sure I've referenced here before. This morning I did the first exercise. I'd like to share it on here, but I don't think I have the self confidence to do that because of the subject matter. hahaha. Maybe one day.
But all the other exercises will get posted here so I can start feeling more comfortable with sharing my writings and not being terrified that they suck. Which I'm sure the first few will, but I'm slowly becoming okay with that.
In other news, freaking fall is here and in full swing!!!!!!!!!!!! The weather is sooo nice outside. I need to go winter clothes shopping. Yesyesyesyesyesyes.
THE TEXAS RANGERS ARE IN THE WORLD SERIES FOR THE SECOND YEAR IN A ROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay.
But all the other exercises will get posted here so I can start feeling more comfortable with sharing my writings and not being terrified that they suck. Which I'm sure the first few will, but I'm slowly becoming okay with that.
In other news, freaking fall is here and in full swing!!!!!!!!!!!! The weather is sooo nice outside. I need to go winter clothes shopping. Yesyesyesyesyesyes.
THE TEXAS RANGERS ARE IN THE WORLD SERIES FOR THE SECOND YEAR IN A ROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay.
Ben Rector concert is this Friday. Much excitement. Much.
Ramen Republic for lunch today. Basically, heaven in bowl form.
My sweet friend Daniel's radio show is tomorrow...all the way from Iowa. :)
But most excitingly.......I have the idea for my book completely pinned down in my head. It's amazing what sitting down and writing for 30 minutes will do for a writer. What a beautiful thing. (:
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Well, hello there. I've gotten really bad about posting but I'm kind of glad because that just means I'm staying busy.
The weather has turned to beautiful in Texas and I'm loving every second of it. Even the rain, because Lord knows we desperately need it. Pretty soon I'll be able to start wearing scarves and cute jackets...guess that means I'll need to go shopping. ;)
I've also decided that I'm going to buy myself an iPad. Especially with this new iOS that just came out. My co-worker Kerri and I have already rationalized buying one enough for the both of us. So it's happening. Probably in December as an early birthday present to myself.
Here's what my Christmas list consists of right now:
1. DVD box sets of the followin amaaaazing shows: House, Big Bang Theory, Lie to Me, and Criminal Minds
2. A keyboard
That's basically what I want for Christmas this year. This year is also going to be exciting because I'm going to be able to buy family presents with my own money that I made. Which is really cool.
Hmmm, I think that's really all that's going on right now.
Have a great weekend, everyone!
Cheers :)
The weather has turned to beautiful in Texas and I'm loving every second of it. Even the rain, because Lord knows we desperately need it. Pretty soon I'll be able to start wearing scarves and cute jackets...guess that means I'll need to go shopping. ;)
I've also decided that I'm going to buy myself an iPad. Especially with this new iOS that just came out. My co-worker Kerri and I have already rationalized buying one enough for the both of us. So it's happening. Probably in December as an early birthday present to myself.
Here's what my Christmas list consists of right now:
1. DVD box sets of the followin amaaaazing shows: House, Big Bang Theory, Lie to Me, and Criminal Minds
2. A keyboard
That's basically what I want for Christmas this year. This year is also going to be exciting because I'm going to be able to buy family presents with my own money that I made. Which is really cool.
Hmmm, I think that's really all that's going on right now.
Have a great weekend, everyone!
Cheers :)
Monday, September 26, 2011
PhoenixEcho181
It's strange to me how some things bother me but then...when I think about other things...no emotional response at all. Ya know what I mean? Like it bothers me that my room is a laundry disaster zone but it doesn't bother me even a little bit that personal time spent with the Lord is limited to about two days a week. I mean...it bugs me, but obviously not enough for me to really make any change.
So I'm praying that God starts shifting my focus to things that really matter. Which I think He has been doing and I'm just kind of in a strange in-between stage. Which are totally awful. To quote a Mumford and Sons song, "if only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy, I could have won." That's kind of how I feel right now.
We are close to another month ending which means a few things for me:
1. Pay day! Woot!
2. I'm getting THAT much closer to turning 21. (3 months left)
3. The semester is that much closer to being over. HA! (I don't like school)
4. Cooler weather is upon us in Texas. You know you live in Texas when you get very excited about the high temp for the day being around 90 degrees. It's glorious. I looooove being a Texan.
5. This cooler weather also means reading outside. Which is one of my most favorite things to do ever ever ever. I want to buy a hammock to put in my backyard to do said reading in. Yeah that would be awesome.
I desperately need a new camera. So many fun things have been going on lately and all I've got is my iPhone to take pictures with, which is awful, but I'd rather have something nicer. I don't really want to wait until Christmas to ask for one but I also don't know that I want to spend the money on one. Hmm, that's a lie. I do want to spend the money, but I think I just have to decide which one is best.
Pottermore finally sent me The E-Mail that my account was ready. *squeals* ahhh, soooo excited. However, due to the large number of Potter nerds around the world, the site has been unavailable almost every time I wanna get on. Still. I'm on Pottermore :) (check this post's title, that's my screen name...epic right?!)
English major pet peeve number 10,231: Nothing can be "spilt". That's not even a word. You "spilled" something is what should be said. Sheesh.
Work is so dull. That's why I'm rambling. I'm done.
Cheers :)
So I'm praying that God starts shifting my focus to things that really matter. Which I think He has been doing and I'm just kind of in a strange in-between stage. Which are totally awful. To quote a Mumford and Sons song, "if only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy, I could have won." That's kind of how I feel right now.
We are close to another month ending which means a few things for me:
1. Pay day! Woot!
2. I'm getting THAT much closer to turning 21. (3 months left)
3. The semester is that much closer to being over. HA! (I don't like school)
4. Cooler weather is upon us in Texas. You know you live in Texas when you get very excited about the high temp for the day being around 90 degrees. It's glorious. I looooove being a Texan.
5. This cooler weather also means reading outside. Which is one of my most favorite things to do ever ever ever. I want to buy a hammock to put in my backyard to do said reading in. Yeah that would be awesome.
I desperately need a new camera. So many fun things have been going on lately and all I've got is my iPhone to take pictures with, which is awful, but I'd rather have something nicer. I don't really want to wait until Christmas to ask for one but I also don't know that I want to spend the money on one. Hmm, that's a lie. I do want to spend the money, but I think I just have to decide which one is best.
Pottermore finally sent me The E-Mail that my account was ready. *squeals* ahhh, soooo excited. However, due to the large number of Potter nerds around the world, the site has been unavailable almost every time I wanna get on. Still. I'm on Pottermore :) (check this post's title, that's my screen name...epic right?!)
English major pet peeve number 10,231: Nothing can be "spilt". That's not even a word. You "spilled" something is what should be said. Sheesh.
Work is so dull. That's why I'm rambling. I'm done.
Cheers :)
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Something Like This
Ben Rector's new album is already in the top ten on the iTunes charts. It's SO SO SO good. Like I said earlier, I'm sorry to the rest of the library for neglecting you...but it is ESSENTIAL that I very familiar with this album when he comes to Dallas in October. :)
Driving to school this morning, I decided that I needed to blog about what my life would look like if I hadn't made a huge life decision in May.
First of all, I'd be living in Denton not having to fight traffic every Tuesday and Thursday. I more than likely would have a job that I hated and not making enough money to be able to buy things for myself. Also, I'd be unhappy being so far away from my friends. I know that my relationship with the Lord would not be where it is right now. It'd be hard for me to find joy in the little things because I would be in a situation where my influences would be of the bad sort.
So what does that mean for me right now?
I'm in a place of such peace and contentedness. God has grown me up so much in the last 4 or 5 months that it evens weirds me out sometimes at my thought process. I feel like an adult now. A real grown up, making real decisions to help shape my future. Do you know how fulfilling that is? Only the most fulfilling feeling in the entire world. My life would look so different if I hadn't stood up for myself and what I know is right. Pretty cool. I've been smiling all day thinking about that. (And the fact that Ben is gonna be in my ears all day).
Life is enjoyable for me right now and I can only see it getting better from here.
It would only be appropriate to leave with a quote from a new song off Something Like This: "Leave your worry for another day. Let the good times roll tonight."
Cheers :)
Driving to school this morning, I decided that I needed to blog about what my life would look like if I hadn't made a huge life decision in May.
First of all, I'd be living in Denton not having to fight traffic every Tuesday and Thursday. I more than likely would have a job that I hated and not making enough money to be able to buy things for myself. Also, I'd be unhappy being so far away from my friends. I know that my relationship with the Lord would not be where it is right now. It'd be hard for me to find joy in the little things because I would be in a situation where my influences would be of the bad sort.
So what does that mean for me right now?
I'm in a place of such peace and contentedness. God has grown me up so much in the last 4 or 5 months that it evens weirds me out sometimes at my thought process. I feel like an adult now. A real grown up, making real decisions to help shape my future. Do you know how fulfilling that is? Only the most fulfilling feeling in the entire world. My life would look so different if I hadn't stood up for myself and what I know is right. Pretty cool. I've been smiling all day thinking about that. (And the fact that Ben is gonna be in my ears all day).
Life is enjoyable for me right now and I can only see it getting better from here.
It would only be appropriate to leave with a quote from a new song off Something Like This: "Leave your worry for another day. Let the good times roll tonight."
Cheers :)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Red Velvet Cupcakes
Let's start with how today has gone:
1. Work was super busy. Lots of movement all around the office. It helped the day go by quickly.
2. Homework was relatively interesting...I really enjoy my online American Fiction class. It kinda makes me wanna write a short story. They are much less daunting and can have just as big of an impact.
3. My best friend Elisa and I took an adventure to the HUGE Half Price Books in North Dallas. Luckily, I only spent $26 on a few books and a sweet Johnny Cash CD.
4. Elisa decided she and I need to have our own T.V. show to document the times we hang out. They can be pretty entertaining. I have the theory that they only way we are friends is to have this show of us being taped...kinda like The Truman show...ya know? Ok, maybe not. But still kinda cool to think about.
5. Red Velvet cupcakes with whipped frosting are da bomb.
Now...yesterday was just one those days that reminds me of the greatness of God...even in the small things...
I rode the train to school this week. Now, some of my stops are a little sketchy in areas so I kind of have to pay attention to my surroundings. Which is fine.
So, I am sitting on the second train I have to take home and at one stop a big group of guys gets on and start being really, really loud. Nothing about them really intimidates me except for how loud they are. We were in a small train car and they were standing up and saying all kinds of foul things. So I get a little anxious and think that I'm never gonna ride the train again because I can't handle this kind of thing. Finally, I get to my stop and get off. I still feel a little anxious and shaky, so I'm trying to calm myself down by enjoying the scenery of Downtown Dallas around me.
Here comes my next train, I get on and find an empty seat. In comes this little boy to sit right in front of me. He immediately turns around and starts talking to me. We talk about my music, his school, the trains, Six Flags, fishing and the man sitting across the aisle taking a nap. He was so sweet and just wanted someone to talk to. I'm so glad God put me in that spot right then because I was so blessed by that sweet boy. His innocence shone God's love through every part of our conversation. I hope I get to see him again on Tuesday.
Now that was kind of a long story, but God just really changed my mood around sooo quickly. I am grateful for a God who knows my circumstance and what makes my heart beat.
I'm off to Austin to a wedding!!
Have a great weekend, y'all!
Cheers :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
1 more hour till i'm off of work
yesterday i was talking to a friend of mine and i was telling him how i felt like a real adult because i'm always so busy with school and work and family and sitting in traffic. and then i thought to myself today, "am i really that busy?" the answer i came up with: yes! hahaha. how'd you like that for an intro?
i'm also not capitalizing anything in this post. i'm working on trying to find my own style of writing so i'm experimenting with different things. does this one fit me?
ooh on a fun note: i'm redecorating my room this weekend. it was changed to a guest room when i first left for college and now that i'm back home for at least the next year, i'd kind of like it to reflect a bit more of me instead of my grandmother's attic. no offense, grandma. so i'm pretty excited about that. new paint color, new bedding, new bookcase and new clock/wall decorations. it's gonna be a good time!
*ahem* 11 days until Ben's(he deserves to be capitalized, and yes we are on a first name basis) new album is coming out. can't wait. so excited. might scream a little. apologizing to the rest of my itunes library in advance for the certain neglect that will happen once this album comes out.
happy labor day!
cheers :)
i'm also not capitalizing anything in this post. i'm working on trying to find my own style of writing so i'm experimenting with different things. does this one fit me?
ooh on a fun note: i'm redecorating my room this weekend. it was changed to a guest room when i first left for college and now that i'm back home for at least the next year, i'd kind of like it to reflect a bit more of me instead of my grandmother's attic. no offense, grandma. so i'm pretty excited about that. new paint color, new bedding, new bookcase and new clock/wall decorations. it's gonna be a good time!
*ahem* 11 days until Ben's(he deserves to be capitalized, and yes we are on a first name basis) new album is coming out. can't wait. so excited. might scream a little. apologizing to the rest of my itunes library in advance for the certain neglect that will happen once this album comes out.
happy labor day!
cheers :)
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
tinted windows
This is what I get for not writing in my blog consistently....
I forget what I was gonna write about...and it was really really profound....
At least I thought it was profound.
However, I suppose I can just babble on about the last few days.
Spending the weekend with Karla was uber fun...and getting to see my old friends was pretty awesome as well. It's always encouraging being in the space of such godly people.
I think that's why I'm so excited about this coming up semester. This summer has been filled with me being around people who really love and seek Jesus and it's really motivated me to strive for better.
We'll see how far that gets me.
Sometimes, I feel bad for girls who didn't get to grow up with a sister...or a best friend who was pretty much a sister. My younger sister just means the whole world to me and it'd be weird if I didn't have her. Like, she moved off to college last week...the college I attend...but it's still weird that she isn't around when I get home from work.
So I started class yesterday and every chance we got, we were hanging around each other. Lunch, after class, dinner and every time in between. It was so much fun to laugh uncontrollably, talk about our crazy professors and the crazy people in our classes.
Her roommate doesn't understand why we call each other "sister" instead of by our first names.
Also, I love Family Guy.
Cheers :)
Her roommate doesn't understand why we call each other "sister" instead of by our first names.
Also, I love Family Guy.
Cheers :)
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Long time, no see
It's been a while since I've written on my blog.
At this very moment, I'm sitting across the room from my bff, Karla. :)
Staying with her makes me want an apartment even more. It also makes me miss being away at college. Being able to go out whenever you want and just sitting in the room all day is the bomb.
On the other hand, I love my life right now. Being busy at work all the time. Wanting to go to sleep before midnight every night. Meeting all kinds of new people and learning about different cultures in a way that I never thought I would is so awesome.
But I really am ready to get my own place. Close to home. But far enough that I can be independent.
School starts on Tuesday and I never thought I would say that I'm really excited about it. Bring on all the good literature I'm gonna get to read this semester!
Okay, well I just wanted to give a quick update. Back to hanging with Karla!
Cheers :)
At this very moment, I'm sitting across the room from my bff, Karla. :)
Staying with her makes me want an apartment even more. It also makes me miss being away at college. Being able to go out whenever you want and just sitting in the room all day is the bomb.
On the other hand, I love my life right now. Being busy at work all the time. Wanting to go to sleep before midnight every night. Meeting all kinds of new people and learning about different cultures in a way that I never thought I would is so awesome.
But I really am ready to get my own place. Close to home. But far enough that I can be independent.
School starts on Tuesday and I never thought I would say that I'm really excited about it. Bring on all the good literature I'm gonna get to read this semester!
Okay, well I just wanted to give a quick update. Back to hanging with Karla!
Cheers :)
Thursday, August 18, 2011
I love Ben Rector
First of all, to address my title: Ben Rector has one of those voices and sounds that just...soothes.
Plus, he's not too hard on the eyes.
Plus, I've seen him pretty much every time he's in the area.
Plus in 26 days, his new album comes out.
I expect every word out of my mouth will be a lyric from his album.
Prepare yourselves.
I was re-reading older posts of mine and it felt like I was reading stuff from a completely different person. God has been so faithful in my life in the past year and I wish I wasn't so quick to set that aside to make my own plans.
School starts in 12 days and I'm so excited. I miss being on campus and seeing the BSM people and just learning. Haha. But I'm really glad my sister is going to be up there so I'll have an excuse to be up there more and do things with her.
Also...the zipper on my jeans broke....
Cheers :)
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
I just realized something...
I have two friends, who will remain unnamed, that are pretty extroverted. Most of my friends are, but these two pretty much take the cake in the area of meeting and talking to new people. This is not my personality, however, and many times I wish I was like them. They're just so darn loveable.
Here's what's funny though...before these two friends were super outgoing, they were two of the shiest people I knew. I was the one introducing them to people and getting them to hang out with others...
Now they've got their own things going on...and it's just weird to me. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't have things going on...but it's just funny to me that they are SO different from when I first met them. Kinda cool how God works that stuff out.
In other news, I'm exhausted.
Cheers :)
Here's what's funny though...before these two friends were super outgoing, they were two of the shiest people I knew. I was the one introducing them to people and getting them to hang out with others...
Now they've got their own things going on...and it's just weird to me. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't have things going on...but it's just funny to me that they are SO different from when I first met them. Kinda cool how God works that stuff out.
In other news, I'm exhausted.
Cheers :)
Saturday, August 13, 2011
My friends....
....are really the best ever. Please do not try and argue with me. My friends are the literal definition of awesome. They are pretty much a constant source of laughter and encouragement.
Also, I have this new app on my MacBook and it's called Evernote. It just is a place to write all of your thoughts down and keep them somewhat organized. You know what that means? All the ideas for a certain piece of literature I may be working on will all go there. Pretty sweet.
Speaking of my Mac, I need a name for him. I want something over the top and really manly. What about Dominic?? That is super manly. He could be Dom for short, which is even beastlier. Or Nickolai...that makes me think of a Russian mobster or something. I think Dominic is it.
Quick side note: The Bourne movies are played entirely too often on the USA network than should be allowed....
OH! I went to the Dallas World Aquarium for the first time today and it was AMAZING. I already want to go back...but preferably on a day when there are not approximately 1400 screaming kids running around. I bought a sweet hat and shirt in the gift shop.
My aunt and two cousins are in town from California and it's so awesome to have them here. They are so cool and fun. I think over Christmas break, I'm gonna fly to Cali and spend a week or so with them. They keep asking us to come and now that I've got a job, it is very much possible for me to make the trip. Hopefully, the rest of my family can make it up here. Can you imagine? Christmas by the beach, eating the freshest of seafood and maybe even some hiking on the mountains. Maybe I'll move with my aunt for a while after I graduate.
I think that's really all for now.
Cheers :)
Also, I have this new app on my MacBook and it's called Evernote. It just is a place to write all of your thoughts down and keep them somewhat organized. You know what that means? All the ideas for a certain piece of literature I may be working on will all go there. Pretty sweet.
Speaking of my Mac, I need a name for him. I want something over the top and really manly. What about Dominic?? That is super manly. He could be Dom for short, which is even beastlier. Or Nickolai...that makes me think of a Russian mobster or something. I think Dominic is it.
Quick side note: The Bourne movies are played entirely too often on the USA network than should be allowed....
OH! I went to the Dallas World Aquarium for the first time today and it was AMAZING. I already want to go back...but preferably on a day when there are not approximately 1400 screaming kids running around. I bought a sweet hat and shirt in the gift shop.
My aunt and two cousins are in town from California and it's so awesome to have them here. They are so cool and fun. I think over Christmas break, I'm gonna fly to Cali and spend a week or so with them. They keep asking us to come and now that I've got a job, it is very much possible for me to make the trip. Hopefully, the rest of my family can make it up here. Can you imagine? Christmas by the beach, eating the freshest of seafood and maybe even some hiking on the mountains. Maybe I'll move with my aunt for a while after I graduate.
I think that's really all for now.
Cheers :)
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Outrageous: My new favorite word.
Sometimes watching certain parenting styles just sends me over the edge. Allowing your children to get to the point where they think it's okay to yell and hit you. I just feel like whenever I'm a parent, my children will be able to express their feelings to me in an appropriate way.
I want an apartment. Really, really badly.
Also, I've come to the conclusion that I don't just want to write a book. My goal in life is to be a writer and that contains a lot more than just being a book writer. So, if I can support myself with any type of writing/writing industry job, then I'd be okay with a book possibly coming down the road at some point. :)
I think that's really all for now.
Cheers :)
I want an apartment. Really, really badly.
Also, I've come to the conclusion that I don't just want to write a book. My goal in life is to be a writer and that contains a lot more than just being a book writer. So, if I can support myself with any type of writing/writing industry job, then I'd be okay with a book possibly coming down the road at some point. :)
I think that's really all for now.
Cheers :)
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
CapriSun's are SO good
Do you remember that one time when growing up and making hard decisions really sucked? I do. Because that's my life right about now.
Kenya=a big, resounding no right now. Too much stress about finding the money by the end of this month. I know God has called me to go there, but I think my timeline is a little off. School has to be finished before I can go. Distractions+me+school=never a good thing. But I'm content with my decision and know that I can still be a blessing to Sakina with all the letters and what not I can still send her.She and Kenya are not going anywhere. :)
13-inch MacBook Pro=being shipped into my possession as we speak...type...whatever...it's coming. Which is such a big thing for me to have a laptop that actually works. One that doesn't try to send me into seizures with it's strobe effect. This computer will no doubt get me through the rest of school and then some. When I buy a house, I'll buy an iMac. Deal? yes.
Lastly, I've decided that I want to open/manage/work at an antique/old/valuable/slash bookstore. I love books, right? Right-o. All I want to do for the rest of my life is read and write, right? Bingo. Being surrounded by books all day should spark some kind of creativity in me, right? Sure. Therefore, I aspire to own a book shop. That way, I can hire people to do my bidding whilst I sit in the back office and write my bestseller.
Pacific Cooler CapriSun's are da bomb!
Cheers :)
P.S. I'm addicted to sweet tea. It's really bad...like I may need an intervention.
Kenya=a big, resounding no right now. Too much stress about finding the money by the end of this month. I know God has called me to go there, but I think my timeline is a little off. School has to be finished before I can go. Distractions+me+school=never a good thing. But I'm content with my decision and know that I can still be a blessing to Sakina with all the letters and what not I can still send her.She and Kenya are not going anywhere. :)
13-inch MacBook Pro=being shipped into my possession as we speak...type...whatever...it's coming. Which is such a big thing for me to have a laptop that actually works. One that doesn't try to send me into seizures with it's strobe effect. This computer will no doubt get me through the rest of school and then some. When I buy a house, I'll buy an iMac. Deal? yes.
Lastly, I've decided that I want to open/manage/work at an antique/old/valuable/slash bookstore. I love books, right? Right-o. All I want to do for the rest of my life is read and write, right? Bingo. Being surrounded by books all day should spark some kind of creativity in me, right? Sure. Therefore, I aspire to own a book shop. That way, I can hire people to do my bidding whilst I sit in the back office and write my bestseller.
Pacific Cooler CapriSun's are da bomb!
Cheers :)
P.S. I'm addicted to sweet tea. It's really bad...like I may need an intervention.
Monday, August 1, 2011
Shin Splints
Here's what my mind is currently thinking:
1. I'm not really sure why I feel like I want to do so many things...but don't really seem to have a way to do them all...
2. My enter button decides when it wants to work..lame...
3. Kenya is calling my name louder than ever. And I'm happy to respond to her call.
4. Why haven't I watched the History channel more????
On a much larger note, God showed up in a realistic way last week at youth camp. There were no tears, no crazy re-dedications and no promises that I knew couldn't be kept. However, I got to take a real look at what my life had become and what I knew He expected from me. The idea of rejoicing in my salvation was really the main lesson of the week for me. Thanking the Lord every day for the sacrifice He made for me is something that is essential to me really being devoted to Him. Salvation, love, grace and mercy are things that I fear I may never understand, but I can for sure thank and praise God for what I do understand: He loves me enough to look past my junk and give me another chance.
nor angels nor rulers,
nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing
will have the power to separate us
from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord! Romans 8:38-39
Amen :)
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Devoted
The theme for the youth camp I'm going to this year is "Devoted". Which is super awesome because these next 5 days leading up to me leaving for youth camp are going to be full of examples of devotion...
1. My older sister (not blood sister, but my sister nonetheless) is getting married on Saturday. Obvious answer here is marriage is all about devotion to your spouse and all that mushy-ness. But it also makes me think of the years of friendship/siblingship(lol) Amanda and I have gotten to share over the past 7 or 8 years. Since 8th grade, there are few memories that do not involve her or her family in some way. It's been so great getting to learn how to be a friend to someone completely different than me, but if you saw her and I together now, you'd probably say we were a lot alike. I'm so so excited for her and this journey she is getting started on and am even more excited that I'm going to get to play a small part in her big day.
2. My papa is also getting married this weekend, on Sunday. This marriage is different than the one above for a couple different reasons. My papa and his soon to be wife are Muslim. I've never been to a Muslim wedding even though I've been around them quite often for the past 20 years. I'm very curious and excited to see how their traditions are different than ours. The part where devotion comes into play on this one is kind of tricky. See, my granny just passed away last August. It's been less than a year and my papa is already getting re-married. At first, I was taken aback about how quickly it all was happening, but after having a deeper conversation with my papa, his devotion to my granny was ringing through loud and clear. Before she passed, they had multiple conversations about them not wanting the other to be alone when one passed away. So, by getting remarried, my papa is showing how devoted he was and is to my granny by moving on with his life the way she would have wanted him to. What a cool display of love. I'm glad to be apart of such a family.
On an even bigger scale, all the family and friends that are going to be in attendance at both weddings are another sign of devotion. Each person at the wedding will have had some impact on the bride and groom's life whether big or small. They are going to be there as a sign of their devotion the individual and ultimately the couple. How cool?! Ice cold.
So, in these next few days, I'm going to be getting a lot of devotion thrown at me. God's perfect timing? I think, yes. Who could have planned this in a more appropriate way? None other than the creator of all.
I'm grateful to be co-leading with one of my best friends in the world, Daniel, next week at camp. It's going to be such a fulfilling week of worship and quiet time with the Lord, which is desperately needed in my life right at this moment. Something is telling me that I may be learning a lot more from my family group then I'll be teaching them.
T-minus 8 days until Karla is stateside again. I'ma little A LOT excited.
Cheers :)
1. My older sister (not blood sister, but my sister nonetheless) is getting married on Saturday. Obvious answer here is marriage is all about devotion to your spouse and all that mushy-ness. But it also makes me think of the years of friendship/siblingship(lol) Amanda and I have gotten to share over the past 7 or 8 years. Since 8th grade, there are few memories that do not involve her or her family in some way. It's been so great getting to learn how to be a friend to someone completely different than me, but if you saw her and I together now, you'd probably say we were a lot alike. I'm so so excited for her and this journey she is getting started on and am even more excited that I'm going to get to play a small part in her big day.
2. My papa is also getting married this weekend, on Sunday. This marriage is different than the one above for a couple different reasons. My papa and his soon to be wife are Muslim. I've never been to a Muslim wedding even though I've been around them quite often for the past 20 years. I'm very curious and excited to see how their traditions are different than ours. The part where devotion comes into play on this one is kind of tricky. See, my granny just passed away last August. It's been less than a year and my papa is already getting re-married. At first, I was taken aback about how quickly it all was happening, but after having a deeper conversation with my papa, his devotion to my granny was ringing through loud and clear. Before she passed, they had multiple conversations about them not wanting the other to be alone when one passed away. So, by getting remarried, my papa is showing how devoted he was and is to my granny by moving on with his life the way she would have wanted him to. What a cool display of love. I'm glad to be apart of such a family.
On an even bigger scale, all the family and friends that are going to be in attendance at both weddings are another sign of devotion. Each person at the wedding will have had some impact on the bride and groom's life whether big or small. They are going to be there as a sign of their devotion the individual and ultimately the couple. How cool?! Ice cold.
So, in these next few days, I'm going to be getting a lot of devotion thrown at me. God's perfect timing? I think, yes. Who could have planned this in a more appropriate way? None other than the creator of all.
I'm grateful to be co-leading with one of my best friends in the world, Daniel, next week at camp. It's going to be such a fulfilling week of worship and quiet time with the Lord, which is desperately needed in my life right at this moment. Something is telling me that I may be learning a lot more from my family group then I'll be teaching them.
T-minus 8 days until Karla is stateside again. I'm
Cheers :)
Thursday, July 14, 2011
All was well...
Well, the day has finally arrived...the last movie of the Harry Potter series comes out at midnight...
*sigh*
No need to dwell. Moving right along, then.
Karla, my best friend who has been in England all summer, comes home in 13 days. Hopefully I'll get to see her before school starts or soon thereafter.
I've discovered that my reading is labored when it's done out of necessity. I did not successfully make it through all 7 books before today. Which is okay. I'd rather see this movie, take it all in, and then pick back up the books at my own pace.
Pet peeves aren't really my thing. Like, I don't really notice things people do that bother me. However, one thing that just irks me to the core is the way people respond to text messages sometimes. Por ejemplo, in the middle of a conversation, a person texts "yeah." or "ok" or "ya" or EVEN WORSE "k". OhMyGravy. Can't staaaand it. I'm done ranting.
In book news, I've got so many ideas floating around in my head that it's hard to really single out which one to take a run with. Luckily, all these floating ideas center around one main idea: going away from home and coming back to find everything/everyone different. Once, the exact right idea and story line pop into my head, I'll be ready. It's just a matter of weeding through all the ideas that come from stuff I've already read and finding in the midst of them, my own. It shall happen.
As Lord Voldemort tweeted just a few minutes ago: "Magic never ends"
Cheers :)
*sigh*
No need to dwell. Moving right along, then.
Karla, my best friend who has been in England all summer, comes home in 13 days. Hopefully I'll get to see her before school starts or soon thereafter.
I've discovered that my reading is labored when it's done out of necessity. I did not successfully make it through all 7 books before today. Which is okay. I'd rather see this movie, take it all in, and then pick back up the books at my own pace.
Pet peeves aren't really my thing. Like, I don't really notice things people do that bother me. However, one thing that just irks me to the core is the way people respond to text messages sometimes. Por ejemplo, in the middle of a conversation, a person texts "yeah." or "ok" or "ya" or EVEN WORSE "k". OhMyGravy. Can't staaaand it. I'm done ranting.
In book news, I've got so many ideas floating around in my head that it's hard to really single out which one to take a run with. Luckily, all these floating ideas center around one main idea: going away from home and coming back to find everything/everyone different. Once, the exact right idea and story line pop into my head, I'll be ready. It's just a matter of weeding through all the ideas that come from stuff I've already read and finding in the midst of them, my own. It shall happen.
As Lord Voldemort tweeted just a few minutes ago: "Magic never ends"
Cheers :)
Monday, July 4, 2011
The big 3-0!
Wellllllll, this is my 30th post! Kind of a big deal to me....kinda. Lol. I've really enjoyed getting to put my thoughts into this cute little blog.
Last summer, my mom bought me this awesomely retro couch from the 70's. Until last night, there hasn't really been a place in my room to put it and still have room to maneuver around. Thank goodness my mom watches all those design shows or else we would have never made it fit! It looks great and now I've got a sweeeeeeeeeet couch in my room. Party?? :P
Last summer, my mom bought me this awesomely retro couch from the 70's. Until last night, there hasn't really been a place in my room to put it and still have room to maneuver around. Thank goodness my mom watches all those design shows or else we would have never made it fit! It looks great and now I've got a sweeeeeeeeeet couch in my room. Party?? :P
By this time on Thursday, I will be having my braces removed. No questions asked. It is ABSOLUTELY happening this Thursday. Yes. Finally. 3 LONG years, over. Doneskis.
I get to go to Youth Camp with my church as a leader this year and I'm PUMPED! I haven't been since I graduated and that was two years ago. It will be a much needed week of resting with the Lord. So good.
I deactivated my Facebook account yesterday. I'm way proud of myself. It wasn't hard and I don't really foresee missing it too much. Plus, I've got this blog and Twitter(@Kelsey_Aleem17) which I think are better use of my time than just creepin' on all my friends and having to read all the ridiculous drama that comes with Facebook. Hopefully, I can last the rest of the summer with no Facebook and once school starts up, I'll see how things are going.
With all that said, I'll get more into my little blog here and start posting pictures and different things like that. So it will be a lot more enjoyable to read because I know how much everyone likes pictures with their readings.
So, I'm pretty sure I mentioned that I'm re-reading all the Harry Potter books before the last movie...which is..one...week..away...ahhhhhhh. *whew* I'm certainly not ready. Anyhow, second book was hard for me to get through...not sure why...but basically, I need to read 3, 4, and 5 before like...Sunday...and then have Mon-Thurs to read 6 and 7. Nooow that I've got the distraction of Facebook aside, reading should be a lot easier.
Oh! I got stung by a stupid wasp when I was TRYING to relax in the pool yesterday. No worries, I didn't swell up like a balloon or stop breathing...it did hurt pretty badly though.
I'm glad it's Tuesday. Makes the week seem more manageable.
Cheers :)
Friday, July 1, 2011
Ahhh, the little things
I seriously can't wait to be a mother. This sounds terrible, but I really can't wait to discipline my children. Not like beat them, but really teach them the difference between right and wrong and watch them make decisions based on what I've taught them.
Finally got to talk to Karla after a couple weeks. AWESOME. Miss her terribly. So proud of all she is telling me she's learning. What an awesome best friend to have. Can't wait to hug her neck again.
Also...I love Texas summers...to me, the best feeling is, at the end of the work day, walking outside of our arctic office into the 95+ degree weather. Ahhhh, it's so refreshing. Haha. Any real Texan would heartily agree with me.
Harry Potter has taken over my life. In the BEST way possible. I have Luna's wand. EPIC.WIN. And two of my fellow HP freaks are reading all 7 books in the next two weeks. It's been awesome re-reading the books that pretty much shaped my literary journey.
Things are good for me now.
Cheers :)
Finally got to talk to Karla after a couple weeks. AWESOME. Miss her terribly. So proud of all she is telling me she's learning. What an awesome best friend to have. Can't wait to hug her neck again.
Also...I love Texas summers...to me, the best feeling is, at the end of the work day, walking outside of our arctic office into the 95+ degree weather. Ahhhh, it's so refreshing. Haha. Any real Texan would heartily agree with me.
Harry Potter has taken over my life. In the BEST way possible. I have Luna's wand. EPIC.WIN. And two of my fellow HP freaks are reading all 7 books in the next two weeks. It's been awesome re-reading the books that pretty much shaped my literary journey.
Things are good for me now.
Cheers :)
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Big, big blessings
Goooood morning!
I love working. It's awesome to actually have something to fill my days with.
Also, I didn't get my braces off, but hopefully that will be remedied soon. Very soon. At least before July 23, when my "sister" is getting married and I'm a bridesmaid. Braces and wedding pictures=no thank you. Fingers crossed.
Next March 19-27, I have a huge opportunity to go to Kenya. Yeah, Kenya...that's in Africa...where the little girl I sponsor lives. Yeah. I am beyond thrilled. Beyond.
Have I mentioned that I love where I work?
This morning we had a little get together for some of the missionaries that help out at the museum who have been gone for the past year. They were teaching at a school in Azerbaijan, which is near the Caspian Sea. Anyhow, it's just a blessing to be able to hear of all the cool things that the Lord is doing around our world. It really makes me want to have some small part in it, somehow.
That's all I think I have for now...
An update on the book will be coming soon. Promise. :)
Cheers :)
Monday, June 13, 2011
Squeaky Boots
I'm pretty close to a final idea on a possible book/short story. After this week of craziness at work, I plan on actually writing this idea down on paper ;) I'll be sure to post about how that goes.
I had a long discussion with my friend Brandy at work today about friendships and what should be expected in those friendships. I'm very optimistic that I have an even better outlook on the types of friends I want to have and really invest time into. I'm super glad to have older, wiser people in my life to help me think through the tough things in life.
List time!!!
These are things I'm looking forward to in the next few weeks:
1. I'M 99.9999% SURE I'M GETTING MY BRACES OFF THIS THURSDAY!!!!! *ahem* I'm a tad bit excited. 3 years is long enough.
2. Summer has officially started. My tan is coming along nicely and our pool is getting some good use.
3. At the end of this month I am FINALLY getting a new laptop. I'm grateful to have a job to allow me to pay for that on my own. Awesome.
4. My Dallas Mavericks are the NBA Champions!!!!!!!
I think that's actually all for now.
Cheers :)
I had a long discussion with my friend Brandy at work today about friendships and what should be expected in those friendships. I'm very optimistic that I have an even better outlook on the types of friends I want to have and really invest time into. I'm super glad to have older, wiser people in my life to help me think through the tough things in life.
List time!!!
These are things I'm looking forward to in the next few weeks:
1. I'M 99.9999% SURE I'M GETTING MY BRACES OFF THIS THURSDAY!!!!! *ahem* I'm a tad bit excited. 3 years is long enough.
2. Summer has officially started. My tan is coming along nicely and our pool is getting some good use.
3. At the end of this month I am FINALLY getting a new laptop. I'm grateful to have a job to allow me to pay for that on my own. Awesome.
4. My Dallas Mavericks are the NBA Champions!!!!!!!
I think that's actually all for now.
Cheers :)
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Suspect Behavior
I love Criminal Minds. Best. Show. Ever.
Some choices people make just confuse me. Not make me mad. Just confuse me. Can't wrap my brain around it. Just weird. To each his own, I suppose. Hmmm.
Have I mentioned that I am desperately aching to write a book? Or write anything. Basically, I want to create some piece of literature, get it edited, send it to publishers and hope one of them decides it's good enough to publish it and then get it printed and put in book stores.
Pipe dream?
Nah. It'll happen. For sure.
I need to, like, go to an island for two weeks. Alone. And just brainstorm.
Anyone wanna fund that trip? Just lemme know.
Cheers :)
Some choices people make just confuse me. Not make me mad. Just confuse me. Can't wrap my brain around it. Just weird. To each his own, I suppose. Hmmm.
Have I mentioned that I am desperately aching to write a book? Or write anything. Basically, I want to create some piece of literature, get it edited, send it to publishers and hope one of them decides it's good enough to publish it and then get it printed and put in book stores.
Pipe dream?
Nah. It'll happen. For sure.
I need to, like, go to an island for two weeks. Alone. And just brainstorm.
Anyone wanna fund that trip? Just lemme know.
Cheers :)
Friday, May 27, 2011
Here is a list of things I've become aware of in the past two weeks:
1. Babysitting is one of my favorite activities in life.
2. Reading will forever and always be the one way I can truly escape from the world around me...
3. As soon as I turn 21 (in exactly 7 months), I'm going to become a beer connoisseur.
4. Working with people who love and seek Jesus is such a rewarding experience.
5. Dance is my favorite form of art.
6. I desperately want to write a book.
7. Country music is my new guilty pleasure.
8. I am quietly passionate about bicycling.
9. My brain is wired to automatically want to accommodate people, even when they really don't deserve it.
10. I am confident I know who my real friends are and am equally confident that my friends know who I really am.
I'm in a list mood...
Next time, I'm listing all the places I want to go in the world before I die...or get too busy...whichever comes first... ;)
Cheers! :)
1. Babysitting is one of my favorite activities in life.
2. Reading will forever and always be the one way I can truly escape from the world around me...
3. As soon as I turn 21 (in exactly 7 months), I'm going to become a beer connoisseur.
4. Working with people who love and seek Jesus is such a rewarding experience.
5. Dance is my favorite form of art.
6. I desperately want to write a book.
7. Country music is my new guilty pleasure.
8. I am quietly passionate about bicycling.
9. My brain is wired to automatically want to accommodate people, even when they really don't deserve it.
10. I am confident I know who my real friends are and am equally confident that my friends know who I really am.
I'm in a list mood...
Next time, I'm listing all the places I want to go in the world before I die...or get too busy...whichever comes first... ;)
Cheers! :)
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
The Museum Explorer
So, I work at an anthropology museum with my aunt, who is the director. We are located on the Wycliffe center here in Dallas and basically Wycliffe sends missionaries out into the world to translate Bibles into different languages. Really cool Jesus work being done here.
Well, as I was looking at the museum's e-mail this morning, I came across an e-mail from a lady who came here last year with her two younger sisters. She explained how her sister had always had a passion for Africa and wanted to go there to be a teacher. Well, she says after visiting our museum, her sister's passion was even more evident than before. At the end of her e-mail, she said that her sister is finally getting the opportunity to go to Uganda to teach. She was thanking our museum for being so dedicated to spreading knowledge about different countries.
Ok, HOW COOL?!?!?!?!?! I love working at a place that is about kingdom business, but it's always very awesome to see the fruits of that labor. Now, the museum may have only played a small part in this girl's life journey, but we played a part nonetheless.
What an amazing blessing to be working here. I love it. And I'm so thankful to God everyday for just putting it in my lap when I was least expecting it.
I was feeling pretty crappy this morning but that just made things forty thousand times better. How quickly the Lord can change things around.
Cheers :)
Well, as I was looking at the museum's e-mail this morning, I came across an e-mail from a lady who came here last year with her two younger sisters. She explained how her sister had always had a passion for Africa and wanted to go there to be a teacher. Well, she says after visiting our museum, her sister's passion was even more evident than before. At the end of her e-mail, she said that her sister is finally getting the opportunity to go to Uganda to teach. She was thanking our museum for being so dedicated to spreading knowledge about different countries.
Ok, HOW COOL?!?!?!?!?! I love working at a place that is about kingdom business, but it's always very awesome to see the fruits of that labor. Now, the museum may have only played a small part in this girl's life journey, but we played a part nonetheless.
What an amazing blessing to be working here. I love it. And I'm so thankful to God everyday for just putting it in my lap when I was least expecting it.
I was feeling pretty crappy this morning but that just made things forty thousand times better. How quickly the Lord can change things around.
Cheers :)
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Feels good to be home
My heart is just full to the brim right now for so many reasons.
The two people I wanted in the finale of American Idol are in it! That might sound silly and minor, but I don't think there could have been a two better people chosen. I'm so thrilled.
I'm so proud of my sweet best friend, Karla, for getting to go spend the summer in England loving on people. How cool?! I love it. and her. She's the best person I know.
God's ultimate provision and perfect timing has always been something that I thought I understood or had some sort of grasp on. Well, all that was certainly blown away when I realized how small I was and could never really completely conceive His almighty awesomeness. Over the past month and a half, I've just been blindsided with joy, contentment, fulfillment and peace that I really couldn't even begin to explain it properly.
Here's what I know: when I've been faithful to the Spirit's prompting, things I didn't think would ever happen, happened. whenever I've surrendered my plan, to whatever He would have for me, suddenly my plans changed to things I didn't think I wanted. Whenever I started to expect or think I deserved certain blessings, God took those things away...but replaced them with things I'd never even think to label as blessings.
Basically, my state of mind has been altered.
I'm grateful.
Richly blessed.
Cheers :)
The two people I wanted in the finale of American Idol are in it! That might sound silly and minor, but I don't think there could have been a two better people chosen. I'm so thrilled.
I'm so proud of my sweet best friend, Karla, for getting to go spend the summer in England loving on people. How cool?! I love it. and her. She's the best person I know.
God's ultimate provision and perfect timing has always been something that I thought I understood or had some sort of grasp on. Well, all that was certainly blown away when I realized how small I was and could never really completely conceive His almighty awesomeness. Over the past month and a half, I've just been blindsided with joy, contentment, fulfillment and peace that I really couldn't even begin to explain it properly.
Here's what I know: when I've been faithful to the Spirit's prompting, things I didn't think would ever happen, happened. whenever I've surrendered my plan, to whatever He would have for me, suddenly my plans changed to things I didn't think I wanted. Whenever I started to expect or think I deserved certain blessings, God took those things away...but replaced them with things I'd never even think to label as blessings.
Basically, my state of mind has been altered.
I'm grateful.
Richly blessed.
Cheers :)
Monday, May 16, 2011
A spoonful of sugar....
Even though I'm really enjoying having my hair curly and what not...I have to admit, I'm really super ready to straighten my hair. Haha.
Also, "A friend loves at all times..." (Prov. 17:17). I've been praying and trying to figure out what the friendships in my life really mean to me for a while now. As I was getting ready to write this post, that verse came to mind. So pretty much...God just answered all my prayers and wonderings in those six words.
Today I spent the majority of my day with one of my most favorite people in the whole world. Her and I haven't gotten to really spend time with each other lately because of our crazy schedules so today was MUCH needed. It was just so refreshing to hang out with someone who I know is just enjoying hanging out...no expectations. We just talked, laughed, shared and confessed things that have been going on with us. Huge life experiences were shared and small things that wouldn't seem to matter to anyone else were expressed. The amount of familiarity, contentedness and love between us was just so awesome. Seriously, coolest thing ever.
I'm just so blessed knowing that God has placed those long time friends in my path. For big life moments and for the days of just hanging out at the mall. It puts the biggest feeling of joy in my heart knowing that the Lord has entrusted me with those friendships and that I should be actively pursuing, praying for and trying to grow those bonds.
Loving on and laughing with friends is the best, tangible way God expresses His unrelenting love for me. This summer is just going to be full of all these specials moments with old friends and doing what I can to make and develop new friends.
Lord, be glorified in the way I handle my friendships.
Cheers :)
Also, "A friend loves at all times..." (Prov. 17:17). I've been praying and trying to figure out what the friendships in my life really mean to me for a while now. As I was getting ready to write this post, that verse came to mind. So pretty much...God just answered all my prayers and wonderings in those six words.
Today I spent the majority of my day with one of my most favorite people in the whole world. Her and I haven't gotten to really spend time with each other lately because of our crazy schedules so today was MUCH needed. It was just so refreshing to hang out with someone who I know is just enjoying hanging out...no expectations. We just talked, laughed, shared and confessed things that have been going on with us. Huge life experiences were shared and small things that wouldn't seem to matter to anyone else were expressed. The amount of familiarity, contentedness and love between us was just so awesome. Seriously, coolest thing ever.
I'm just so blessed knowing that God has placed those long time friends in my path. For big life moments and for the days of just hanging out at the mall. It puts the biggest feeling of joy in my heart knowing that the Lord has entrusted me with those friendships and that I should be actively pursuing, praying for and trying to grow those bonds.
Loving on and laughing with friends is the best, tangible way God expresses His unrelenting love for me. This summer is just going to be full of all these specials moments with old friends and doing what I can to make and develop new friends.
Lord, be glorified in the way I handle my friendships.
Cheers :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?
I've really only got one thing to say in this post....but it's a big deal for me....
There is just something so refreshing feeling completely detached from a situation and knowing that it's just okay to feel that way. What a cool thing. God knows what He's doing. Learning to let go of things and people is a hard thing I learned to do a while ago. It's paying off now. Again, God knows what He's doing and has the most perfect timing. There really isn't anything in my life that isn't in place right now.
What a beautiful life I'm living right now.
Cheers :)
There is just something so refreshing feeling completely detached from a situation and knowing that it's just okay to feel that way. What a cool thing. God knows what He's doing. Learning to let go of things and people is a hard thing I learned to do a while ago. It's paying off now. Again, God knows what He's doing and has the most perfect timing. There really isn't anything in my life that isn't in place right now.
What a beautiful life I'm living right now.
Cheers :)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Anthropology and Curls
I love my job. It's so fun getting to work with my aunt. I grew up coming to this museum but now I get to be apart of how it runs and that's pretty stinkin' awesome, if you ask me.
Guess who rode THREE miles on her bike the other day?! That's right, me. It was great. Had my headphones in listening to Matt Chandler's sermon series on Habakkuk and just rode away. So fun.
Also, I've been riding in my car lately without any radio or anything. That's been fun to just think and have some quiet while I'm driving.
My second year of college is officially over. *sniff* By this time next year, I'll have to start applying for graduation. Weeeeeird. BUT waaaaaaay exciting.
Today was the first day I used my new curly hair natural hair stuff...stuff...hahaha..yeah. It's awesome though! Best hair day in a looong time. Excited to see how the rest of this curly month plays out.
A buuuuunch of my friends are finally coming home for the summer and I'm really glad about that. Lots of fun and encouraging times are ahead! Yay summer :)
Check out the new link at the bottom of my page!! It'll take you to Compassion International's website and you can learn all about child poverty and how you can be a part of ending it! I get to sponsor the sweetest little girl from Kenya and it has been THE single most rewarding experience of my life. I pray the day comes soon that I get to go and hug her little neck.
Here's a cool quote to leave with:
"Do something for someone everyday."
Cheers :)
Guess who rode THREE miles on her bike the other day?! That's right, me. It was great. Had my headphones in listening to Matt Chandler's sermon series on Habakkuk and just rode away. So fun.
Also, I've been riding in my car lately without any radio or anything. That's been fun to just think and have some quiet while I'm driving.
My second year of college is officially over. *sniff* By this time next year, I'll have to start applying for graduation. Weeeeeird. BUT waaaaaaay exciting.
Today was the first day I used my new curly hair natural hair stuff...stuff...hahaha..yeah. It's awesome though! Best hair day in a looong time. Excited to see how the rest of this curly month plays out.
A buuuuunch of my friends are finally coming home for the summer and I'm really glad about that. Lots of fun and encouraging times are ahead! Yay summer :)
Check out the new link at the bottom of my page!! It'll take you to Compassion International's website and you can learn all about child poverty and how you can be a part of ending it! I get to sponsor the sweetest little girl from Kenya and it has been THE single most rewarding experience of my life. I pray the day comes soon that I get to go and hug her little neck.
Here's a cool quote to leave with:
"Do something for someone everyday."
Cheers :)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
April showers bring May....challenges??
For the month of May, I've set three challenges for myself and I'm pretty excited about the potential outcomes!
Numero uno: I'm not going to straighten my hair for this whole month. I straighten it so much and it's just killing my hair right now. Plus, I'd like my hair to grow longer and straightening it just is not helping that process at all. So, I'm in the market for natural hair products to help strengthen my hair again!
Numéro deux: I am going to workout for at least 30 minutes every day this month NO MATTER WHAT. I have my mind so set on doing this that I really feel like there is nooooo way it won't happen. No need to say any more about that!
Il numero tre: 20 minutes of just sitting in my room (or anywhere), digging into God's word. Shouldn't I be doing this already, you say? Well, yes I should be. But to be honest, I have not been as diligent in my quiet times as I should be. Plenty of times I've fallen into this pattern, but I think what's different about my state of mind now, is that I realize the significance of daily walking with the Lord. At times in my life, I have been good about meeting with God in the quiet times of my days and when I look back on those times, they were some of the most joyful and fulfilling times of my life. I want that again.
I'm pumped about the month of May.
Cheers :)
Numero uno: I'm not going to straighten my hair for this whole month. I straighten it so much and it's just killing my hair right now. Plus, I'd like my hair to grow longer and straightening it just is not helping that process at all. So, I'm in the market for natural hair products to help strengthen my hair again!
Numéro deux: I am going to workout for at least 30 minutes every day this month NO MATTER WHAT. I have my mind so set on doing this that I really feel like there is nooooo way it won't happen. No need to say any more about that!
Il numero tre: 20 minutes of just sitting in my room (or anywhere), digging into God's word. Shouldn't I be doing this already, you say? Well, yes I should be. But to be honest, I have not been as diligent in my quiet times as I should be. Plenty of times I've fallen into this pattern, but I think what's different about my state of mind now, is that I realize the significance of daily walking with the Lord. At times in my life, I have been good about meeting with God in the quiet times of my days and when I look back on those times, they were some of the most joyful and fulfilling times of my life. I want that again.
I'm pumped about the month of May.
Cheers :)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Contemplating
I'm contemplating a couple of things right now...
1. I've been really stressed about finding this book that the Lord really used to speak to my heart throughout last semester. This doesn't seem like that big of a deal, right? Wrong. It occurred to me that, although that book was a huge part of getting me through last semester, I should be more worried about why I'm not constantly in His Word. I should be worrying and stressing about why I'm not looking feverishly into His love letter to us. Eh. Just kind of convicting. Well. A lot convicting. I still want to find that book. But I want to be lost in His Book.
2. Friendships. So many questions. I know that all the relationships in my life right now are serving a purpose. Except the thing that's kind of tripping me up is just how complex they all are. But I my line of thinking is following a little more specific path. Why do WE have to make things so complex in our relationships? For me, I've got some friends that I know so well that it's just not hard to be around them at all, ever. Those friends are the ones who challenge my walk and are genuinely concerned about how I'm growing. Those are the friends that make my life soooo worth it. It's just hard to explain.
On the other hand, the friends who are good friends, but just not to the level of the other kind. It's just...uhh...I dunno. Hard. Here's what I think is hard: I want to be able to invest, care, listen, pray and enjoy those friends as much as my deep friends. In the big scheme of things, I do most of those things for all my friends, but I think I just want to WANT to do those things more.
I'm just wanting to find the deeper meaning in those friendships that I'm just kind of lukewarm about.
Oh, the ramblings of a sinner's heart. Lord, be glorified in my rambling.
These next two weeks are gonna be stressful. I'm praying for rest and strength in Him. And for a rejuvenation of those friendships I've let slide.
Cheers :)
1. I've been really stressed about finding this book that the Lord really used to speak to my heart throughout last semester. This doesn't seem like that big of a deal, right? Wrong. It occurred to me that, although that book was a huge part of getting me through last semester, I should be more worried about why I'm not constantly in His Word. I should be worrying and stressing about why I'm not looking feverishly into His love letter to us. Eh. Just kind of convicting. Well. A lot convicting. I still want to find that book. But I want to be lost in His Book.
2. Friendships. So many questions. I know that all the relationships in my life right now are serving a purpose. Except the thing that's kind of tripping me up is just how complex they all are. But I my line of thinking is following a little more specific path. Why do WE have to make things so complex in our relationships? For me, I've got some friends that I know so well that it's just not hard to be around them at all, ever. Those friends are the ones who challenge my walk and are genuinely concerned about how I'm growing. Those are the friends that make my life soooo worth it. It's just hard to explain.
On the other hand, the friends who are good friends, but just not to the level of the other kind. It's just...uhh...I dunno. Hard. Here's what I think is hard: I want to be able to invest, care, listen, pray and enjoy those friends as much as my deep friends. In the big scheme of things, I do most of those things for all my friends, but I think I just want to WANT to do those things more.
I'm just wanting to find the deeper meaning in those friendships that I'm just kind of lukewarm about.
Oh, the ramblings of a sinner's heart. Lord, be glorified in my rambling.
These next two weeks are gonna be stressful. I'm praying for rest and strength in Him. And for a rejuvenation of those friendships I've let slide.
Cheers :)
Monday, April 25, 2011
Enjoying the Silence
I sure have been thinking a lot lately how it helps sooo much to just step away from a situation and just see how things happen...which for me, has been inexplicably helpful.
The Lord has been really faithful in showing me the benefit of the major life decisions I've been making in the past few weeks. His grace and provision have been SO obvious in every aspect of my life that it just makes me wonder why I ever tried to do things on my own. Before a couple of weeks ago, I had a place to live in Denton but wasn't comfortable with the living arrangements, I didn't have a job in order to help pay for my apartment, summer classes weren't figured out yet, I wasn't loving my major and I was just in a major major funk.
Since then, I've gotten a job pretty much secured, my parents are letting me stay with them, summer classes are figured out, my major is changed and I'm THRILLED about it, and I'm no longer feeling the funk of just not knowing. I'm resting in the Lord's promise of having a plan already set out for me. I've just got to do my part now and commit my life to Him fully.
AND even cooler, I'm getting to pray a friend through a situation I know all too well. How cool?! So many blessings. I'm praying I handle them the right way.
On top of all of that, I got to see Karla after 7 months. There's nothing like spending 3 days with the person who knows you best in this world. Loved every stinkin' minute of it.
Cheers y'all :)
The Lord has been really faithful in showing me the benefit of the major life decisions I've been making in the past few weeks. His grace and provision have been SO obvious in every aspect of my life that it just makes me wonder why I ever tried to do things on my own. Before a couple of weeks ago, I had a place to live in Denton but wasn't comfortable with the living arrangements, I didn't have a job in order to help pay for my apartment, summer classes weren't figured out yet, I wasn't loving my major and I was just in a major major funk.
Since then, I've gotten a job pretty much secured, my parents are letting me stay with them, summer classes are figured out, my major is changed and I'm THRILLED about it, and I'm no longer feeling the funk of just not knowing. I'm resting in the Lord's promise of having a plan already set out for me. I've just got to do my part now and commit my life to Him fully.
AND even cooler, I'm getting to pray a friend through a situation I know all too well. How cool?! So many blessings. I'm praying I handle them the right way.
On top of all of that, I got to see Karla after 7 months. There's nothing like spending 3 days with the person who knows you best in this world. Loved every stinkin' minute of it.
Cheers y'all :)
Monday, April 18, 2011
What's this?? I'm becoming an adult?!
This is what I'm enjoying lately...
Being apart of a family.
Being able to make responsible decisions that are best for my family.
Always having someone to talk to.
Making endless memories in all kinds of ways.
Constantly being reminded of God's amazing love and divine appointments.
Coolest thing ever.
I'm one blessed gal.
Cheers :)
Being apart of a family.
Being able to make responsible decisions that are best for my family.
Always having someone to talk to.
Making endless memories in all kinds of ways.
Constantly being reminded of God's amazing love and divine appointments.
Coolest thing ever.
I'm one blessed gal.
Cheers :)
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Ahhh, love :)
His name is Winston. He is full of knowledge. He allows to me have pretty much as many books as I want. He does not talk back to me. He lets me talk to myself without assuming I'm insane. I have an unlimited amount of time to spend with him and he never gets tired of it. All of that to say that he, Winston, is the perfect man.
If only, he wore flesh instead of a purple leather cover. Winston is my precious Kindle. We've spent the best time together, going through 14 of my favorite novels.
Since I said I'd have another literature quotes post, I figured I could dedicate these quotes to the ones I've come across in the books I've read from Winston.
It's pretty ironic that the majority of the quotes I've bookmarked in Winston are about friendship and love which are pretty much the big themes in life for me right now. So it's suuuper cool that the idea for a post like this came right now.
And nooooooow on the real business:
If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern (one of my favorite authors)
"...I realized that for the first time in my life, Elizabeth was the only friend I had ever met who had completely understood me after all. And for anyone who's ever had that connection with someone, even if it only lasted for five minutes, it's important. For once I didn't feel that I was living in a different world form everyone else, but that in fact there was a person, a person I liked and respected, who had a piece of my heart, who felt the same way. You all know exactly how I was feeling that night. I didn't feel so alone. Even better than that, I felt like I was floating on air."
-How true it is that it's the best feeling ever knowing that someone understands you so deeply, but still wants to be around you. I've known that feeling with plenty of people and still feel that awesome sense of community with my group of friends now. It's my prayer that I can be the same kind of friend.
and this is probably my favorite quote of all time...from Winston at least ;)
Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks
"True love is rare, and it's the only thing that gives life real meaning."
I think I'll leave it at that.
Cheers :)
If only, he wore flesh instead of a purple leather cover. Winston is my precious Kindle. We've spent the best time together, going through 14 of my favorite novels.
Since I said I'd have another literature quotes post, I figured I could dedicate these quotes to the ones I've come across in the books I've read from Winston.
It's pretty ironic that the majority of the quotes I've bookmarked in Winston are about friendship and love which are pretty much the big themes in life for me right now. So it's suuuper cool that the idea for a post like this came right now.
And nooooooow on the real business:
If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern (one of my favorite authors)
"...I realized that for the first time in my life, Elizabeth was the only friend I had ever met who had completely understood me after all. And for anyone who's ever had that connection with someone, even if it only lasted for five minutes, it's important. For once I didn't feel that I was living in a different world form everyone else, but that in fact there was a person, a person I liked and respected, who had a piece of my heart, who felt the same way. You all know exactly how I was feeling that night. I didn't feel so alone. Even better than that, I felt like I was floating on air."
-How true it is that it's the best feeling ever knowing that someone understands you so deeply, but still wants to be around you. I've known that feeling with plenty of people and still feel that awesome sense of community with my group of friends now. It's my prayer that I can be the same kind of friend.
and this is probably my favorite quote of all time...from Winston at least ;)
Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks
"True love is rare, and it's the only thing that gives life real meaning."
I think I'll leave it at that.
Cheers :)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
More saving. More doing.
Seriously.
The past day and a half have been the hardest. EVER.
Being an adult and having to make difficult decisions is no fun.
But...
It is comforting to know I can rest in the Lord knowing that He will bless the fact that I stood firm in what I believed to be right.
Now! I've gotta start looking for an apartment for myself. Which is going to be super exciting.
I can't wait to see what's gonna happen in the next few months, because after yesterday, I feel like I can't go anywhere but up!
What a beautiful life I'm living right now.
Thank you Lord for the Holy Spirit who guides and prompts us.
Cheers :)
The past day and a half have been the hardest. EVER.
Being an adult and having to make difficult decisions is no fun.
But...
It is comforting to know I can rest in the Lord knowing that He will bless the fact that I stood firm in what I believed to be right.
Now! I've gotta start looking for an apartment for myself. Which is going to be super exciting.
I can't wait to see what's gonna happen in the next few months, because after yesterday, I feel like I can't go anywhere but up!
What a beautiful life I'm living right now.
Thank you Lord for the Holy Spirit who guides and prompts us.
Cheers :)
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Another Break Up Song
This weekend has been successful and stressful...but I'm so confident that God has cool things in the workings. :)
Now, for a bit of rambling...
So, I have this journal that is pretty much my favorite journal of all because at the top of the pages, there are quotes from some of the best literature of all time. Which, if you know me at all, is the coolest thing ever. There have been so many books that have inspired and stretched my mind that I couldn't possibly explain how much I love love love reading.
In high school, I pretty much never read the books assigned to me...or if I did it would just the Spark Notes of the chapter we were quizzed on. Well, my junior year, I was introduced to a book that kind of changed my life at that point in time. The Things They Carried by Tim O'Brien is one of the most heart-wrenching, mind-bending and thought-provoking stories I've ever read. It's based on O'Brien's experiences in Vietnam. If I get any further into the description, y'all will be reading a book review. haha. SO. I'll just give you my favorite quote from the book:
"By telling stories, you objectify your own experience. You separate it from yourself. You pin down certain truths. You make up others. You start sometimes with an incident that truly happened...and you carry it forward by inventing incidents that did not in fact occur but that nonetheless help to clarify and explain."
Ah, I love it. I'll let you decide what it means for your life.
I think for my next post, I'll tell about more of my favorite quotations from some of my favorite books. Looking back on stuff like that, helps me remember how the Lord used those books to teach me life lessons.
Do you have a favorite quotation from a book? How did it help you get through a certain part of life?
Such cool things to explore in books and I plan to not ever stop devouring any book I can get my hands on.
Cheers :)
Now, for a bit of rambling...
So, I have this journal that is pretty much my favorite journal of all because at the top of the pages, there are quotes from some of the best literature of all time. Which, if you know me at all, is the coolest thing ever. There have been so many books that have inspired and stretched my mind that I couldn't possibly explain how much I love love love reading.
In high school, I pretty much never read the books assigned to me...or if I did it would just the Spark Notes of the chapter we were quizzed on. Well, my junior year, I was introduced to a book that kind of changed my life at that point in time. The Things They Carried by Tim O'Brien is one of the most heart-wrenching, mind-bending and thought-provoking stories I've ever read. It's based on O'Brien's experiences in Vietnam. If I get any further into the description, y'all will be reading a book review. haha. SO. I'll just give you my favorite quote from the book:
"By telling stories, you objectify your own experience. You separate it from yourself. You pin down certain truths. You make up others. You start sometimes with an incident that truly happened...and you carry it forward by inventing incidents that did not in fact occur but that nonetheless help to clarify and explain."
Ah, I love it. I'll let you decide what it means for your life.
I think for my next post, I'll tell about more of my favorite quotations from some of my favorite books. Looking back on stuff like that, helps me remember how the Lord used those books to teach me life lessons.
Do you have a favorite quotation from a book? How did it help you get through a certain part of life?
Such cool things to explore in books and I plan to not ever stop devouring any book I can get my hands on.
Cheers :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Words...words...words....
First of all, thank you Jesus that You are constantly there. What a wonderful comfort in this strange phase of life I'm finding myself in.
Tonight we had a small gathering of some of the older girls in the college/young adult group get together with girls from the youth group and just had a dessert and coffee fellowship..
How blessed was I by this sweet time of discussion....SO blessed. It's such a cool thing to hear from younger girls being soo strong in the Lord with all the junky stuff they face these days..
It was such an encouragement to know that the Lord is raising up young girls who are standing out for Him to make an influence in the world He's placed them in. It so makes me want to be a better example for them and for the people around me.
"May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight."
That will be my prayer whenever I wake up and throughout my day.
Also, I want to say a small word of appreciation for my dear friend Elisa. After my last post about wanting stability, she immediately texted me and said she wanted to have a weekly time of phone conversation. So glad God knows just what I need. Tonight we talked, not about anything in particular, but just talked about things going on. It was so sweet.
Here's what I think life should start looking like since my last post that was kind of rant-y and complain-y....
Making a priority of digging into God's word and really what it says about how my heart is supposed to look..
I'm now going to focus on all the positive..
Listening to people and truly praying the best for them.
Ah, the Lord is so good in the exact right times.
Cheers :)
Tonight we had a small gathering of some of the older girls in the college/young adult group get together with girls from the youth group and just had a dessert and coffee fellowship..
How blessed was I by this sweet time of discussion....SO blessed. It's such a cool thing to hear from younger girls being soo strong in the Lord with all the junky stuff they face these days..
It was such an encouragement to know that the Lord is raising up young girls who are standing out for Him to make an influence in the world He's placed them in. It so makes me want to be a better example for them and for the people around me.
"May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight."
That will be my prayer whenever I wake up and throughout my day.
Also, I want to say a small word of appreciation for my dear friend Elisa. After my last post about wanting stability, she immediately texted me and said she wanted to have a weekly time of phone conversation. So glad God knows just what I need. Tonight we talked, not about anything in particular, but just talked about things going on. It was so sweet.
Here's what I think life should start looking like since my last post that was kind of rant-y and complain-y....
Making a priority of digging into God's word and really what it says about how my heart is supposed to look..
I'm now going to focus on all the positive..
Listening to people and truly praying the best for them.
Ah, the Lord is so good in the exact right times.
Cheers :)
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Crazy huge changes and wanting the best
Well...big things are happening right now:
1. My sophomore year of college is coming to a quick and sudden close. I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to start my second to last year of college. YIKES!
2. I'm about to move out of my parents house for good. Scariness.
3. I'm about to move out of my parents house for good. AWESOME!
-The reason I put it twice is because it seems like two insanely different feelings for the same event. I'm terrified to actually be on my own and not have my parents to always be right there. On the flip side, it's gonna be such a cool time in my life that I'm really looking forward to. Such a contrast of emotions about this whole moving out business. I'm certainly praying for a peace about all of it.
Now...that's what's going on in my everyday life...and while I'm enjoying all of that...there is certainly something missing...and last night I realized what it was...stability. The reason I realized it specifically last night is because I was skyping with Karla for two hours. I miss having a constant confidant, an accountability partner living across the room and a true friend who is literally always there.
Ah. I'm in a strange stage of life right now. So many possibilities and opportunities.
1. My sophomore year of college is coming to a quick and sudden close. I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to start my second to last year of college. YIKES!
2. I'm about to move out of my parents house for good. Scariness.
3. I'm about to move out of my parents house for good. AWESOME!
-The reason I put it twice is because it seems like two insanely different feelings for the same event. I'm terrified to actually be on my own and not have my parents to always be right there. On the flip side, it's gonna be such a cool time in my life that I'm really looking forward to. Such a contrast of emotions about this whole moving out business. I'm certainly praying for a peace about all of it.
Now...that's what's going on in my everyday life...and while I'm enjoying all of that...there is certainly something missing...and last night I realized what it was...stability. The reason I realized it specifically last night is because I was skyping with Karla for two hours. I miss having a constant confidant, an accountability partner living across the room and a true friend who is literally always there.
Ah. I'm in a strange stage of life right now. So many possibilities and opportunities.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Wanting
Well...let's get straight to the point...
I miss having someone living across the room from me who is constantly there to serve as a reminder of God's amazing compassion.
Basically, I miss Karla.
Here's what is on my mind right now.
I want...
-to hang out with Karla
-this school part of my life to be done
-to know who, when and where: Who "he" is, when I'm gonna be a mom, where I'm gonna live.
-my life to reflect all that I know God wants me to and not be so selfish and impatient.
Ahhhh life.
Cheers :)
I miss having someone living across the room from me who is constantly there to serve as a reminder of God's amazing compassion.
Basically, I miss Karla.
Here's what is on my mind right now.
I want...
-to hang out with Karla
-this school part of my life to be done
-to know who, when and where: Who "he" is, when I'm gonna be a mom, where I'm gonna live.
-my life to reflect all that I know God wants me to and not be so selfish and impatient.
Ahhhh life.
Cheers :)
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